Sep. 26th, 2017 01:54 pm
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I’ve been so stressed and suffered a lot from anxiety recently, I found it very difficult to deal with my wife depression and worries and she doesn’t been to but there are a lot of what ifs and other things I cannot answer. She wants to move house somewhere cheaper, she doesn’t want to return to work, she’s afraid she doesn’t have lot left. I say I don’t know what’s going to happen, I have no control what will happen. We’ll deal with things as and when they happen, until then please stop worrying as it’s very stressful. I don’t have a job and some of these things might have to happen but until that just stop! It’s effecting of own confidence about things and I don’t know what’s right or wrong anymore. I don’t want if I’m doing the right things and I question things. I don’t know if I got a speeding ticket on the way back from the airport and I’m stressed. I’m sexually frustrated and don’t know what to do about that either. Just feel messed up


Sep. 18th, 2017 02:47 pm
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My wife and I are currently in Rhodes, my in laws are also here as they booked 2 weeks away we only booked a week due to our budget. I'm feeling a bit frustrated, my father in law seems to think I'm rich and keeps getting me to buy drinks when he's not doing that he states how much their half is when out for meals so the waiter will take the menus and he'll start working it out and say that's €23! I feel like saying what you not paying for us then?? I mean I understand working things out when the bill arrives but he acts like we're going to cheat him out of money. It's just the way he is, he likes to know what's going on and make sure everyone knows what's going on. Normally it's not a problem but when on holiday it becomes a bit much. It's like they want to know when we're going to wake up so I'm setting alarms but then they're like well wake up whenever, but when are you going to wake up?
My wife said the other day she doesn't really want to have sex anymore, it's too painful and she doesn't really feel in the mood any more. I understand all the hormone therapy messes with her emotions and she can be really irritable. She almost went mental at a waiter today and she gets snappy. I've asked her many times this week what I've done and she apologises saying it's not me.
I feel frustrated and feel sometimes I can't win. I want a sex life and for it to be fun, I'm hoping it will happen. My wife says she wishes she wanted sex to feel closer but just isn't up for it.
I've contacted the careers advisor to see if I can sort my CV out and start searching again.
My dad called yesterday and seemed angry that I was in Greece with a how can you afford it kinda attitude and sounded disappointed. I said we'd booked it like a year ago and how was his holiday and he seemed to calm down a bit.
My wife still talks about moving to north England or Wales somewhere cheaper, that stresses me out a little.
One thing I have notice as well and I brought to my wife's attention is the fact she tries to assign blame even if it's no ones fault. There's been a few times when she says it's not my fault it's yours because I didn't do something or other and if I had it wouldn't have happened. I reply I didn't think it was your fault, I didn't think it was mine either I think it just happened and no one is to blame. She will then reply saying ok, but it's not mine. That gets frustrating I said to her sometimes no one is to blame so please stop blaming me for things, as I never blame you for anything.


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